Creative Every Day- May 4th

With no sleep. Loads of meetings and stress about money- what is a nineteen year old girl to do?
Create Every Day- That's what.

I have been a little slow on that part. Mostly because I am sleeping between medication for my tooth and out most of the day. However I have been looking around the shops and I picked myself up some stunning wool that made my drool. I wanted all of them, the colors- oh the colors. I don't think a photograph could even do it justice, but I am damn sure gunna try to take one to show you guys how beautiful it is.

To match it I got myself some electric blue knitting needles. These were to cute and matched the them of blue I am going with. [I think I have changed my fetish for purple for blue- meh it happens] So what I do hope is to start knitting another scarf, this time I am going with maybe 10-15 instead of 3o. I want it to be a quick project.

The plain wool is called ' Rockback' while the beautiful shaded blue is called 'Langtree'. [Again sorry my camera does not do it justice. It really pisses me of.


As well as thinking, planning and salivating over delicious wool, I am planning on working on either a card or a bookmark. I am wanting to paint it with my old acrylic paints and stick these cute little paper butterflies to it. I think it will be nice to branch out into different arts and my intuition seems to want me to follow the path of blue this month.

I also am working on a rather depressing poem called ' Handful of Angels'

Handfuls of pills fall like rain drops from the sky

Classical, they sing me a whimsical lullaby

Hushing the day into a drowning black night

Forcing the Angels to fall from great height

Faster than lightening, a comet, a lonely star

They're crashing and falling, marking a scar

Another handful are taken to down with a drink

While I wait quietly suffering, no thoughts left to think.

I force away greatness, a soul full of mirth

Giving away to the darkness that produces this birth

It's a one way ticket to a land under hell's ground

The truth isn't spoken, on earth it will be found

There is no light above us, no heaven or Lord

Darkness surrounds us in an incredible force

Will you succumb to the wrong chance?

Or will you take hope in a rightful romance?

Handfuls of pills seep into my core

If I'm sleeping, no waking, what more can I ask for?

Creative Every Day- May 2nd

While I did not complete much in the means of art, I did manage to make myself happy my knitting until sunrise, and I think I managed to complete a lot. I had a few minor hiccups which really got to me, but I decided that this is a practice scarf and Daniel said he would wear it even if it had holes and lines. Btw it hasn't any holes yet *smiles*

It is going to be a thick scarf.

Creative Every Day - May 2nd

Creative Every Day - May 2^nd

I trusted my intuition today and it lead me to a blog that has not only inspired me to start re-opening my passion for a lot of different crafts, but has inspired me to knit again.

http://lookingforroots.wordpress.com/

A hobby of mine I have tried of and on since I was fourteen.

Today I trusted my heart and my mind. I let the yarn come to me, speak to me. Of course I could not resist to begin with my favourite colour- purple. So I got two types of yarn. One a soft 8ply wool, and the other a softer, fluffy wool. I decided to start with the 8ply first and see what comes of it.

The best part of the experience of knitting again was that I had to learn to cast on myself, as any other time I have always asked my Nanna Margaret or Mum to cast on and get me started. I did use some visual tutorials online, but none were working, until I found this one:

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-3319901922819400872#

I watched the video a few times and would you believe it the only part I took in was the loop. The rest I had to work out for myself. After several failed attempts, I discovered I wasn't leaving enough room for tension, and was wrapping the wool around my fingers wrong. So I worked at it [despite my young cat wanting to play with it] and managed to be fairly productive in working on the scarf I am making for my partner.

So in light of my new creation. I decided to write a little creative poem to match.

Walking along the shelves

I see the diverse colours of inspiration

Calling out to me, beckoning me

Too many choices to taste

I lick my lips, running fingers along them

Each texture makes my heart leap

Onto the next line of needles

I pick my arsenal, exploding with joy

If I had an endless bag to carry

I would fill it with balls of passion

Casting each row in the delights of lust

This experience that warms my soul

Btw sorry for the shitty picture. I will take a better one during the day. I followed my intuition to write this journal entry though.

May 1st - Journaling Prompts 1&2

Part of my plan to be creative everyday means using some Creative Journaling prompts daily.

It is difficult for me to use the prompts suggested on this site and so many others that take a look at me personally in so many ways. I think in the past few years I have lost my passion for journaling and suppressed the side of me that loves delving into the lives of my characters and even into my own deeper mind.

Here is a link to the site I am using for inspiration:

http://journalingprompts.com/

Each day you are given a small prompt to work on. Since April 30th, and May 1st fell so close to me learning more about the Creative Every Day project I decided to make one post.

BTW- In Australia is is May 1st

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List three negative situations you can endure that you think will strengthen your character.

1. Monogamy

In my experience I never wanted to be a one man woman, but through the men and women I have met, I believe their different ideals and choices for open relationships showed me what love there can be in a monogamous partnership.

Learning this has strengthened my values in my relationship with Daniel, and made me a stronger person in supporting and fighting with my man.

2. Spiritual Perception

Although I hate it, and I know it stems from fear, I believe knowing what is out there and experiencing the good and bad side of the unknown is something to grow with and learn from.

It lets me challenge myself to absorb knowledge and find my own path of beliefs.

It gives me ideas to expand on and hope that one day I can be apart of something beyond myself.

Feeling and sensing at even the worst of times has allowed me to come to terms with the idea that we are not alone in this world or the next.

I can be strong and make my loved ones proud of me, both deceased and living.


3. Depression

In my view I suffer from depression, it is still to be medically decided.

I know how I feel. I believe that recovering from depression and fighting through the struggle strengthens my will to do well in life and live passionately.

I know in my darkest hours it is so easy to fall into the downward spiral, especially when in pain [mental pain is the worst], but from the terrifying and insane moments, works of art and self progression can bloom and foster into many inspirational stems and choices to follow in the journey of my life.

Each step into healthy thinking, and positivity us another step towards self-success.

Depression has show me that you don't have to be someone you don't want to be, and if you can come out from the other side, like so many before me have, there are always ways to change your pattern of thinking and to make a life you want, that is yours outside the iron walls.


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How tenacious do you think you are when trying to achieve a goal? What factors influence how persistent you are?

It depends solely on the goal I am trying to achieve. For instance, house work is a goal in progress. Shopping, read and writing are goals in progression.

It also depends on how passionate I am about the goal, and my mood at the time. Sometimes, smaller goals like looking after my health take more persistence, than working on a project or shopping for groceries or luxury items.

A goal to me, has a journey to travel with it.

The goals that I find influence my daily actions and how they turn out are the more complex ones. Ones that should come naturally.

Usually to be persistent I need guidance. This can come in many forms, the most popular being lists. I like to keep lists because they keep me dedicated and on track of my goals [however easy or difficult they are.]

I tend to give up on a lot of goals and challenges because of my self doubt to complete anything, which makes reaching the target of my goal a much longer journey. Even at the best of times.

I like to complete my goals, so I continue to make more and follow the path of my journey. I hate unfinished projects, blank pages and lingering goals.

Creative Every Day - May 1st

Two Halves of the Earth

The rainbows spew from an open earth

Wide arms stretch out with dark mirth

An epic smile written on a soulless face

Where dreams are scattered without a trace.

I opened my eyes in the dimming light

Books piled high to shield my fright

Tossing in a sea made of winter sheets

Suffocating beneath the pillows heat

A purple light surrounds my bed

I'm softly speaking with the dead

Unknown to me is what they seek

What words of guidance can they speak

I roll myself into a tight cocoon

Begging that they'll leave me soon

I am not the saviour they wish me to be

They're feeding on my fear to see

The earth is slowly breaking into halves

Wide spread arms awaiting chosen paths

A shadow waiting on the bend

Of nightmares, dream scapes and revenge

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Hopefully I will have an attempt at artwork to post to compliment this poem

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Me - Half Australian- Greek

Little Avalon - My new Kitten